Oh, the anxiety!!

Well, today was a bad/good day...we'll call it bood, or maybe gad. On the positive side of things, I seriously enjoyed almost every class I had today--graphic design, choir, and even biology was ok, allthough after catching myself doodling some nifty little logos on my notes during the entire schpeal of Dr. Larry Lee, I realized how hard I am actually going to have to work to get a decent grade. Then Women's Chorus adutions came up, and they actually went well, better than I expected. After that, I spent a whopping $155 on books for one class--uno! That's it! How can three little books for an Ethics class cost that much all together!! I mean, come on Dr. Stoker--Momma needs some new highlights!! I need to go to the dollar theatre everyonce in awhile!! Ok, so maybe I'm overreacting just a little, but if you don't know me, then you obviously don't know what an incredible tight wad I am!! Seriously, you think that you like to save a buck or two every now and then, I will honestly go out of my way to avoid handing over my hard earned $7.50/hr to the every growing, faceless, corporate shame that is the American market. Then, there was the ward activity. Enough said for some of you, becuase that may be like hearing the words "games" and "friday night date" together in the same sentence. I absolutley detest large group gatherings where a bunch of strangers are expected to mingle, I mean come on! We're all insecure, incredibly shallow (at times) humans! No way are we going to go up to someone and just start gabbing! I spent almost the entire evening in that wierd both-hands-in-the-pockets stance, while getting pelted by water balloons. Not fun. The sad part is though, the really sad part, is that I know I can only blame myself for not having fun--that's it, no one else! I am in charge of my own destiny!!! No matter how much self confidence I think that I need in order to meet people, I really just need to suck it up, bite the bullet, stick out my right hand and say those three little words that stand between me being alone friday nights and out doing something with friends: "Hi, I'm Charlotte..."