Shady Lady no more...

As my old pal Celine would say, "A new day has come!" (and a collective sigh of relief swept of the readers who now realize that this is not another sob-fest blog entry!! hurray for Perkaset!! totally joking...) I cannot even describe the hope and peace and excitement that I feel right now! I just had such an epiphane tonight about my life, who I want to be, and who I definitley DON'T want to be. It seems like my whole life I've always wanted to be THAT girl, you know, the one the boys all loved, and the one with a million friends who was smart, pretty, good at everything, blah de blah blah. However, somehow, wires got crossed along the way, and I created this shy, dark, and yes even snotty, psuedo mystery woman self. After awhile, I became so sononymous with it, I just kept cultivating it until it consumed me...I realize now that I wasn't happy, I wasn't living the kind of life I wanted to --I was missing out on so much just trying to keep up the image of this alter persona, I had completely forgotten to be me! I'm lucky that I didn't completely miss the friendship boat though, and have been so fortunate to be able to really talk about this with them. Think about it, we are here for four, maybe five short years, that's it! Then we're thrown out into the harsh world outside of Utah Valley and expected to suddenly make our own fun...our own friends. Because believe it or not, but "3 Truths and a lie" probably won't be surfacing in the Manhattan singles ward. So basically, I just want to be able to make the most of my time here. Just thought you'd want to know...